I miss you. I think we should make an effort to spend more time together. We interact on a shallow level and haven't had a conversation of real depth in years. Can our relationship continue to survive on such paltry interaction? I want to recover the enthusiasm and passion we had in our first year together, and hope you do too.
In all honesty, I just don't know exactly what place you should have in my life anymore. It is the neverending battle of my inner artist vs. critic. Or maybe student vs. teacher? Creativity vs. productivity? P vs. J? E vs. I? Whatever it is, each side tends to intimidate the other so that both are rendered ineffective and I'm caught in a stalemate of busywork.
Honest and transparent discussion of my thoughts and life is what would be best for our relationship and probably my sanity, but I'm not convinced that is best for everyone else...There is more at stake here than just you and me, you see - my family, potential readers, and others who actually know me in real life. I need you, but I just feel like maybe others need me to not need you, and I'm not sure where the priority lies, so you see my predicament.
But I do miss you. And I hope we find time to continue this conversation later.
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I love it!
:^) Balance is hard. Maybe one good post every Tuesday?
Don't quit! At least keep us posted for the next family additions :) I know little Ellie coming your way was what got me hooked ;)
HOW did I miss the pumpkin choc. chip muffin recipe???
Yes, please come back--I miss your posts! And I loved this one, by the way! ;-)
I love transparency. We're called to be transparent, right? Keep the blog and your sanity. Write you want, I won't judge. :) And anyone who does judge- well, just tell them not to read it then.
PS. I don't write in my blog all the time either, but it's very nice to have it when you need it.